Doesn’t everyone like food & booze? I’m pretty partial myself however for some dumb reason I’ve decided to abstain to see what impact it will have on my life.
Right now I’m the heaviest I’ve been in my life and fucking miserable, I want to have a drink and forget about it. I’m pissed off about many things and to be quite honest I’d like to say “Fuck it” and have a dram but I’m trying to short circuit my brain.
People don’t regularly admit it but I reckon I’m a functioning addict, I have a good job, I work hard and at night I like to have a drink and chill. What worries me is the quantity I can put away and still function…. But how well?
This doesn’t make me a bad person in any shape or form, I do believe the UK and particularly Scotland, have an unhealthy relationship with alcohol and it’s become part of the nine to five routine, that doesn’t make it right though.
I’m a bit of a rule follower but have a massive dose of “fuck the system" in my DNA too. The cynic in me says the nine to five and the booze routine keeps the nation bored and subversive, it’s okay to bitch and moan after a few pints but it doesn’t change much. Talk to your mates in the pub instead of holding the government to account type shit but I digress.
I don’t think I’ve gone a month without booze in probably the last 25 years and I’m probably being conservative. I was a wild child, a 90’s rave casualty, I knew how to have a good time but as I reach middle age, as a parent and after losing my own dad to cancer I’m beginning to take stock of where I am in life.
I’ve broken a shit ton of rules in my life but there are some you just can’t escape. Nature is an unstoppable force and with that comes diet, cause and effect and a fat fuck trying to get happy, I guess staying dry for January is my starting point in re-calibrating and forming a healthier attitude towards alcohol and food. They are intrinsically linked and also tap into my happy gland, I need to get them all in sync.
Instead of sitting down the pub reconnecting with people over voice calls, signal or any other means I’m tapping into forgotten parts of my brain. My desire to communicate and release thoughts is getting stronger and I’m gaining clarity of goals I want to achieve and am beginning to action them.
Maybe it’s the ditching of some really negative shit that’s been going on in my life that’s allowed me to stop and take a bit of a look at myself. I kinda like it and fully intend on remaining positive about change.
I don’t intend on stopping alcohol completely but I’m challenging myself and my relationship with it. I like whisky too much but I don’t have to drink it every day!
I started writing this after re-reading my old blog on the way back machine, I didn’t think I would be writing an article about food & booze as the opening article on a newly launched site however you gotta start somewhere and I’m sort of taking this as picking up where I left off.
I hope you’ll stay with me as I document life, the universe and everything as I once did. I’ve got a lot of baggage but have a positive outlook and thus Compulsory Fun was born, let’s keep it that way.